Video Games!

I’ve been gaming a lot more recently. I beat Bioshock Infinite a couple weeks ago which was an AMAZING game. I really liked it.

I just beat another game my girlfriend lent me and told me to play called Far Cry 3. 

 

It took me a bit of time to get really into it but once I did I was addicted. I loved the story line in it and that you could roam the map and takeover the enemies outposts and just do whatever the fuck you wanted, basically.

I used to play video games SO much as a kid growing up and all the way until I finished High School. Other than sports it was my #1 hobby. But as I started college a couple years ago I didn’t have time for it. And then when I started working 40 hours a week while going to college I completely forgot about them. 

Even after I graduated and had some spare time to choose to game, I never really let myself get too addicted to them again because it would take up all my time and it would be all I thought about! I like being productive and being active by going to the gym so somewhere inside of me I would think I was “wasting time” by playing video games. Until recently I started playing again I understood that you can say you are “wasting time” with just about anything in life.

I used to play guitar for HOURS after high school and on weekends. It was also something I couldn’t stop doing. But to someone who doesn’t care at all about music, they’d consider it a complete, boring waste of time. 

The same goes with working out. If you take the health benefits out of it, why bother going to the gym and running in one spot or lifting up weights and putting them down for an hour? Doesn’t that seem pointless?

As I started to look back into my hobbies in 2014 and what are the things I really enjoy in life, I realized anything can seem pointless if you think about it. And in the end it’s all about what makes you feel that feeling of happiness and what is simply just “fun” to do.

As I said when I started writing this blog, I think a lot. I like to analyze a lot of stuff and I don’t really know why. But the reason of “Why” I’m doing something was always huge for me.

Like, “What’s the point of doing this?” or “If I do this what will it accomplish later?”

Sometimes you don’t need a reason of “Why” – you just do what you enjoy and try new things to see if they’re for you.

Random Fact: I should really get a haircut.

Moving Craziness and My Strange Luck

It’s been awhile! I’ve been super busy with many things but I felt like writing today so this is a great time to catch up some interesting things I’ve been up to and thinking about.

So first and foremost – I’m moving to London at the beginning of May with my girlfriend, Sadie. This is what’s been taking up a lot of my time with planning for the future and organizing what will happen when, etc. I’m really excited and happy to be moving downtown London with someone I really love being with. I view life almost like a book and I feel this is a new chapter approaching. As much as I like my current life and job and everything it involves, I feel like this chapter of it has been far too long. I really need a change.

In the past couple weeks, during all the transitioning and planning for the move, a lot of weird things have been happening. Like a couple weeks ago after a day of working, I took out money from my bank and I was waiting for my ride. I got a text saying they were here and I stupidly left my debit card there. I didn’t notice until the next day and when I checked my account someone had stolen $240 from it. I was super bummed and it’s still in investigation. But still – right before a move and everything it’s not ideal.

And a week or so later I woke up after the weekend with really swollen tonsils. I’ve had strep throat 3 times within the last 12 months so I figured it was that again. My doctor prescribed the usual pills to take down the swelling but after a couple days it wasn’t improving. I was wondering if I had mono or something…it was just weird.

So I went to a different doctor and he said I had to go get surgery immediately because the swelling was so bad the only way it could be brought down was through surgery. 

Sweet…

So there I was on a Wednesday afternoon with a note for the Throat Specialist waiting for my ride to drive me to the hospital. Thankfully my friend and sisters boyfriend, Taylor was around and he drove me there and waited with me. So lucky he was there for me that day. Oh, and also, while I was waiting for Taylor my piece of paper for the doctor somehow blew away and I had to get another one before we left. Not the best day.

Anyways, at the hospital I waited for about 2 hours or so with Taylor then the nurse told me they needed to hook me up to two IV’s with Steroids and Antibiotics overnight and we’d do surgery in the morning. So I was pretty bummed it was that serious. And to add to it I had to sleep on a stretcher in a hallway because there were no rooms left.

All in all, I got the surgery in the morning and I felt awesome afterwards that I could eat and drink pain-free so I was thankful.

In saying all this I’ve felt very stressed out lately with making sure everything is going to plan, tracking my money (stolen and not stolen) and trying to prepare for my new life in London. I’m sure everyone goes through these stresses of change and everyone handles them differently. I always try to stay positive, even though it doesn’t always work, but I believe if you anticipate negative outcomes you are creating a self-fulfilling prophecy of an undesired future. That seems silly to me.

Through all these stresses and very weird things that are happening lately, I’m thankful to have my family, my friends, my girlfriend and any other support I receive. It’s easy to see things you will miss once you’ve scheduled a change for your life, and it just reminds me how lucky I am and how appreciative I should be with everything I have. 

Random Fact: I’ll drink Ice Coffee all day, but if my hot coffee goes cold, I’ll never take a sip.

Happy April Fool’s Day & My Thoughts on Staying Present

Hey everyone! Good news – I’m pregnant! I’ll be due in 8 months. I’m hoping for a boy but who knows!

Juuuuust kidding, Happy April Fool’s Day! Sorry for pulling a fast one on ya, you must have been shocked. I hope some of you did some epic pranks today.

I’ve been really happy lately and I swear it’s partly because there is actually some sun out. I really can’t stand the winter gloominess and cold. So glad it’s been nice lately.

So I wanted to share something I was thinking about the other day. I watched this documentary recently which talked about how within the last 10 years or so, we’ve all become dramatically unconnected physically, but at the same time immensely connected electronically. Just thinking back to 1994, only 20 years ago, that was when the inter-web was JUST getting some attention. It’s weird to think in the last 20 years the world has become so much more connected because of the internet and smartphones. But have we actually become more connected?

I’m a huge advocate of living in the present moment. If you look back you can get depressed on things you can’t change and if you look forward you can get anxious about things that don’t even exist. But even I can’t ignore my phone going off while I’m mid-conversation. Even I can notice the way I converse over texting isn’t the same as how I converse in person. 

Some people would much rather text you all day and night instead of a phone call or meeting in person to converse. And there’s nothing really wrong with that. Especially if you have other things you need to be doing and you can manage both at the same time. But I think there’s a huge connection missing through texting or Facebook messaging. 

I guess I just find it weird that although we’ve been given a massive privilege no other generation has really been given, it’s phasing out some things that are important. Like social skills. Being able to have a conversation with someone in the present and not checking your phone every 5 minutes. Enjoying the moment of first seeing the Grand Canyon with your own eyes and senses rather than through your phone’s camera and Instagram post.

I’m definitely not innocent of any of these things, but I think being aware of it and consciously choosing to be there for the moment is something I’m going to work on. Just something I’ve been thinking about and thought I’d share my thoughts!

Random Fact: I usually read 3/4 of a book and then lose interest. It sucks…

http://www.zimbio.com/watch/pLdtBbpPVrc/Waking+Life+Don+t+Want+Ant/Waking+Life